come down from the mountain, you’ve been gone too long
It doesn’t feel right to talk about fashion when my mind is racing in a million other directions, so I’m going to write what I’m thinking and feeling.
I suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. I’ve become very aware of my disorders in recent years, and am getting better at rationalizing my thoughts in most situations. However, when I’m under a large amount of stress, I lose control, and that’s exactly what’s happening right now. I’m constantly cleaning everything, I can’t sleep, I shake my legs with nervous energy all day and night, I’m agitated & irritable, and my mind is constantly racing. With all that’s going on with work, school, and my personal life, I’m struggling to stay in control. I want to stay positive and I want to be in control of my disorders, but right now I’m not winning that battle.
I know this too shall pass, and I remind myself of that daily, but for now, I just want a glass of wine, a warm blanket, and some cartoons.
Photos by Bryant Yang